Posts tagged ‘rain’

April 2, 2013

First Rain

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These are absolutely the days that I thrive in. It’s finally the season where the snow has turned to rain and I couldn’t be any happier. There’s just something about a rainy day, the overcast skies, and the constant patter of the rain on the window that makes me feel in a place that is so distant from here. I close my eyes and I am instantly transported to a place that might as well be heaven, or something close to it anyways. These kinds of days are the ones that allow my mind to wander and think about things that I wouldn’t normally think of. And speaking of rain, here’s another poem that I found from high school about rain.

No. 5

The rain began to fall

He lay there, unmoving

Unable, bleeding, dying

The cool summer mist

Blanketed those, fallen and broken

As the rain fell

He thought of why he was there

The interests of others

With their pristine gloves

And their self-absorbed wants

The rain grew heavy

He could feel the anger building

It was not his fight

Although the rain was cool

The blood was warm

The tears grew heavy

He would go home soon

Vision blurring

Fading

Into blackness

He thought of her

One last time

As the rain washed away the pain

And remembered

Why he was here

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And there you have it! Hopefully you enjoyed. These kinds of things are definitely harder to post, since they are of my own feelings (in a raw form), but I feel that it may be of better use here than in my notebook. You all have a great rest of your day :)

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January 6, 2013

And one more!

I know I haven’t been posting lately, but there hasn’t been anything to procrastinate from in the past few weeks, being on break and all! Haha, but will definitely get back into the swing of things here pretty soon. With school looming around the corner and everything. But in the meantime, here’s one more award that Nina was kind enough to give out. It’s an honor to be considered inspiring, since at times I have to inspire myself to get out of bed. So thank you once again!

veryinspiringblogaward

So the rules :

* Display the award logo on your blog

* Link back to the person who nominated you

* State seven things about yourself

* Nominate 15 other bloggers for this award and link to them

* Notify those bloggers of the nomination and the award’s requirements

Seven things about myself:

1. One weird fact I noticed about myself. I always get 8 hours of sleep, exactly, when left to sleep in. No matter what time I go to bed, it’s always 8 hours. Weird.

2. I love reading horror stories! The ones that make you think well past finishing the tale. I just read through my brother’s copy of Scary Stories To Read in the Dark…and I still couldn’t get over how terrifying those images are that are scattered throughout the book. I just couldn’t get enough! And then I thought…how many kids has this book scarred already?

Yes, that is a severed head. A bloody, severed head...In a children's book.

Yes, that is a severed head. A bloody, severed head…In a children’s book.

3. Every time I come home for the holidays…I tend to eat way more than I should. But shhh, that’s only between you and me. I can never get enough of the pies that we have…Pecan, Pumpkin, Key-lime, Sweet Potato…oh man. I’m going to have to get a slice now, with some ice-cold milk. Thanks. Just thanks.

4. Courage the Cowardly Dog, and Samurai Jack were some of my favorite shows being younger. And I’m way excited since I just got the entire collection for both! It’s almost too good to be true….

5. I just found out that I qualify to be a pilot in the AF. I still have selection boards and everything, so even though it’s still a long shot, we’ll see how that turns out. It’s definitely opens up a couple more doors in the long run.

6. I will listen to a song that I like repeatedly…to the point where I just don’t find it the same as when I first heard it. And that makes me a bit sad, especially if I really liked the song…The latest song that I just can’t stop listening to:

Just listen through it once, preferably with RainyMood and you’ll know what I’m talking about!

7. I’m really into things that are paranormal, things that can’t be explained, but nonetheless creepy. Kind of weird but I like having those chills down my spine. It definitely gets the adrenaline going, and sharpens the senses.

And the Nominees:

bardessdmdenton

PURE INSTINCT

Words from my Soul

Anti-static Electricity

Sweet As NZ Girl

Alphabravoecho

Sitamar

Some Summer Sunday

whatthefuckintheworld

Rant and Roll

J P Marshman

Supersonic Euphony

The 19th Letter

Thoughts. Dreams. Memories.

The Serious Butterfly

Well so thank you once again Nina! You truly are an inspiration :)

September 4, 2012

Tagged!

I haven’t really had anything on my mind or anything of that sort lately, so being tagged by Trying To Know Thyself has really helped to keep my mind focused on something nonetheless. So lately I’ve been crippled with a severe case of writers block and as I sit here nothing will come to my mind. I just feel really burned out lately and reading back through some of the posts that I wrote in the past brings back that feeling of nostalgia.

 

Those memories where I was so busy from school, but after coming home late at night…instead of sleeping like a normal person would I would have a nice mug of hot chocolate and let loose those things that were on my mind. Those memories where it was cold and dark outside, the outside of my window blurred by the rain and thunder and surrounded by howling winds. The only way I could express myself being through words and getting to know more of so many people with shared interests. Not going to lie, the only reason that this wordpress account is still here is because of all of the interesting, amazing, and genuinely kind people that I have had the opportunity to meet.

It’s definitely sad, knowing that some people have deactivated their accounts and I may never talk to them again. Not only that but just thinking back to all of the people that I got to know at school personally in the last year. But hey, I guess that’s life. People come and go. You just have to be careful about how much of your heart you let them take. It was good while it lasted. But you just got to keep looking forward!

 

Alright so back to the tag!

The Rules

1. I must post the rules.

2. I must answer the questions the tagger listed for me

3. I must create (or reuse) 11 questions for those I tag.

4. I must tag 11 people.

5. I must let them know they’ve been tagged.

Alright, so for this time since I just recently tagged 11 people, I’ll be skipping rules 3-5. But if you want to answer these questions as well, feel free to! You can even just post the answers in the comments. But that’s only if you want to.

The Questions

1. What is your earliest memory?

My earliest memory would have to be when I was growing up in Korea. My mom told me to get dressed for school. Now at the time I was going to a private school and we had uniforms that we had to wear. So I went and put on my purple sweats (because that was the uniform, I guess!) and we went to get some delicious snacks from the local market before we went to the bus stop. All I remember was crying my eyes out as she dropped me off on the bus to my first day of Pre-school.

2. Who is your favorite musician?

Hmm, I don’t think that I could narrow it down to just one musician. There are just too many people that I gain inspiration from. And that inspiration ranges a wide variety of genres. I always love to hear new things. Music to me is poetry in motion, it’s the bridge to the soul. I can tell you who aren’t my favorite musicians…the one’s that they play over and over on the radio these days. Sometimes it surprises me the crap they put on the radio.

3. What was the saddest moment in your life?

The saddest moment of my life was when I moved from my hometown, to go live in a totally new town. This happened when I was in 3rd grade. I was pretty set at the time, having made some really close friends (you know, the one’s you would get in trouble with ;) Turns out the move out couldn’t wait until the end of my 3rd grade year. My parents went with me to school one day and I got to say my final goodbyes. I never got to see any of those friends again. It’s ok though, that wasn’t the first time that I had to deal with moving. If there’s one thing that makes me sad, it’s that a lot of my friends now have had people that they knew since they were practically in diapers and they’re really close friends now. But I will never be able to relate to that. I always feel that I can never relate.

4. What was the happiest moment in your life?

The happiest moment in my life would have to be when my mom made it through her 8 hour surgery. She was diagnosed with a ‘large’ class tumor in her brain, and that although the chance of having a fatal surgery was slim, she could end up being paralyzed, or plagued with strokes the rest of her life after. Good news was, everything went perfectly. The doctor told us that strokes and paralysis are nothing to worry about since none of the nerves were damaged throughout the process. I honestly thought that my relatively short time with my mom would end right there, that life after would be different. But she is 100% now and that strength is what gives me the motivation to do the things that I am doing right now. Every time I feel like complaining, I just think about all of the things that she sacrificed for me to get here. I can’t let that go to waste.

5. Do you have any embarrassing moments?

I have one, er a few. But one that I will share with you. Now this wasn’t embarrassing on my part but I still felt just as awkward. So one day I came back home from school. And it was one of those wintery, gray, lifeless days. Cozy. Anyways, I came home and dropped my stuff off in my room. I had to go to the bathroom so I went. Now, usually when the lights in the bathroom are off and the door is semi-open, that’s a good signal that it’s empty. But was it?!? NO! It wasn’t. My roommate thought that it would be convenient to be taking a dump with the door wide open and the lights off, because he thought that I wouldn’t be home for another good bit. Anyways, I felt so awkward. The minute that light switch went on and that surprised expletive left my mouth. Our conversations after that one moment were never the same.

6. Did you go to college, if so what did you study?

Hmm, I am currently a college student. And although it’s just hectic trying to balance AFROTC stuff with school as well as heading community service projects, I am studying Sociology while working on a minor in History. It’s definitely a lot of reading that’s for sure. But it’s nothing though compared to programming. <–That is definitely commitment.

7. Who is your favorite literary character?

My favorite literary character would definitely have to be Jay Gatsby. He is a man that seems to have everything. But in reality he is just looking for one thing. The poor guy only wanted one thing. And he ended up dying living a life that was never fulfilled to its potential.

8. If you could have any book turned into a film (that wouldn’t suck) what book would it be?

I know that it’s already been done, but I would definitely have a movie of the book “One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest”. Just think of a 2012 remake! Even though the original movie was pretty good. Jack Nicholson is just one creepy looking guy haha!

9. If you could switch lives with someone who would it be and why?

I would definitely want to switch lives with Bruce Lee. He was such a great role model for many people. Also I would want to know what kind of training he did daily and what motivated him to do the things that he did. And to be a student of my own philosophy. That would be pretty intense.

10. Do you enjoy ebooks or real books?

Definitely real books. There’s just something about the smell of a new book and the satisfaction of opening the crisp pages that only a real book can have. Plus it’s what I grew up with! I don’t know, it’s just a different experience reading a book from reading a screen. I just feel like it’s easier to be engulfed in the plot when you’re not staring at some screen for hours. Which is one reason why I really dislike when teachers assign readings from those e-textbooks. It’s just too hard to focus.

11. Have you ever seen/experienced any sort of paranormal activity before?

No I can’t say that I have, but I would love to go find a haunted house and do a little stakeout, Ghost Adventures style. I feel that you can’t really know unless you experience it for yourself. It would definitely be scary, and I probably would have second thoughts in the end. But exciting nonetheless.

April 14, 2012

Rain

The clouds are on the verge of spilling its tears. The sun has already fled from its post. The wind creeping ever so slowly through the leaves of it’s branches. The gray sky emitting barely audible growls. These are the days that I thrive in. The days that I feel most alive. These are the days that make me feel as if I have a home, away from home. It is dark. But there is something so familiar about this loneliness. Even though I am in the company of others, I am still alone. I’ve been here before, been lost in it’s wake. I’ve been lost, but also I’ve been found. Rescued from a life of despair. That is not my fate.

Although these days make me feel isolated, it brings me comfort. Why? I don’t really know. Maybe because it brings back memories of when my family was still together. Still happy. Not a care in the world. Back when things were simple.

I ran away from home once. Naive of me. I was only 6 at the time. It was a day similar to this one. It was raining and I just wanted to run away. Far away. I wanted to prove to my parents that I could take care of myself. I felt so free. Running through the empty streets. Only the splash of my footsteps and the rain hitting the metal roofs of the buildings as I passed them. Yet I also felt scared out of my mind. How could I do that to my parents? Make them worried sick? I came back and my parents were there for me. Gave me a big hug and I felt that nothing could ever hurt me. Being in the embrace of both of my parents. Nothing could ever hurt me.

Then my parents split. I was too young to understand it. But I did. Maybe I didn’t know what the exact reasons were. But I knew. From there my world was destroyed. We moved. I lost all of my friends as well as my family as we moved away. No one told me we would never be coming back. I grew up in a broken family. With one parent that truly cared about who I would be as I grew up.

Anyways, I don’t really know how much longer she is going to be around. So I want to keep every memory I have. Write it down. Now, why am I sharing this in the open? Well, I figured I would explain my name a bit more. Plus, although this may seem downcast, but you will never truly know who I am. I may walk past you one day and you would never know. And that’s how I would like to keep it. I’ve already lost too many friends, and I would prefer not to lose anymore. I’m just another person with another blog. Nothing special.

This is why I call rainy days home. It brings back that day when I felt so free. The day that I felt anything was possible. The rain washed away every fear that I had. Even today, it brings me back to that time. Where things were simple and all that was important was each other. It’s starting to rain now.

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