Posts tagged ‘life’

April 5, 2014

What is success?

Today, I interviewed a very successful businessman who also happens to be a quadriplegic. When I asked him what the number one thing was that led to his success, he paused for a moment and said, “It was a change in mindset that happened about two years after I lost movement in my body. I started living life like I had a lot less to lose.”

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October 24, 2013

2 Years! Already?!

I just had to post a little something here for today. It’s already been two years since I started this thing. I remember sitting in my apartment trying to stave off of homework, ironically, which is exactly what I’m doing right now. I remember seeing some really awesome posts and thought, wow, maybe I could do that. It would definitely save me from studying from this test that I have. And so, that’s how it happened. And from then on, I was able to escape to here whenever I became stressed. It was actually really therapeutic. I could say whatever was on my mind at the time, and I would feel better for saying. No matter if anyone read it or not. 

It was something for me, something where I could just write down my thoughts so that my head wouldn’t explode. But then I realized that I’ve been going about this the wrong way. It doesn’t matter what I would post, because it’s just another post in a sea of endless thoughts, memories, goals, poetry. The real gem was reaching out and getting to know some of the other people on here. I feel like I probably mention this way too much, but I’ve learned a lot more about myself through the writings of others. 

I remember a lot of my earlier posts would be just complaining, complaining about things that didn’t even matter. However, when I got to read some of the other posts out there, I immediately realized that I could have it worse, so much worse. It really put into perspective what I am thankful for, no matter how small or insignificant it may be. Time is the most precious gift, words from the heart were the best medicine. Anyways, if you are reading this, YOU, you are the reason that I still come back to this website 2 years later. Even if you’re one of my regulars [looking at you pouringmyartout], or if you’re just stopping by because of a random post that you had some sort of connection with. The Lucid Dreaming one seems to be a hit…I’ve seen a lot of WP accounts start, then die off and then just disappear and it does feel like I’m losing a bit of myself, especially if I ever had the opportunity to exchange words with you. 

I make it a point to get back to every person that has either followed, commented, liked because I think that it’s important that if you took the time to reach out, why don’t I have the time to return the favor? Anyways, thanks for all the support everyone. Those awards that I received…all from you. To me WP awards don’t really mean too much, but just the fact that someone took the time to nominate me for my mediocre writing (ha!) is what really means the most. Which is why I do them, so that I could get recognition back your way. Life is good on this end, I wish the same for you on yours. Just have to remember that happiness is the journey, not the destination. Keep being awesome! [Also I just realized this is my 90th post, good way to end to years with a even number :P

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August 19, 2013

Life is Good.

Wow! I have not put up a post or anything in a long time! And it sure feels good to be back, that’s for sure. School’s about to start meaning I’ll have a ton more time to waste (haha) just kidding. I really have to make this last year count! It’s all gone by so fast…Soon I will experience the last first day of school ever, and I will be sucked back into my studies. But I thought I’d just put up something, since it brings back all those memories of blogging late into the night, hiding in my closet of a room so that I wouldn’t have to deal with my awful roommates. But that’s another story!

Anyways, I’m just going to keep it brief here. I don’t really have anything on my mind at the moment. Hmm, looking back at the previous post I just want to thank everyone that helped me with my petition. I definitely reached my goal, but I couldn’t have done it without you! More than half of the signatures were from WP!

I’m at a standstill for posting anything stimulating at the moment, however, I would definitely like to get back in touch with you all! So definitely just stop by and say hey and I’ll get back to you! If you’ve never been to this blog feel free to say hey still! I love meeting new bloggers on wordpress, there are just so many talented writers! You have all encouraged me so much, more than I thought I was going to get when I first started, so I thought I would return the favor.

So if life is good, let me know why that is so. And if it’s not so great…still let me know. Like I said, I’d love to get back in touch! And I really don’t even know where to start…plus I can’t sleep.

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March 31, 2013

What is success?

 

 

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I remember growing up, hearing a lot of my friends say that they want to be successful in life when they grew up. But as I got older, I realized that everyone’s definition of success varies quite vastly from one person to the next. Some people saw success as owning many sports cars and being a successful business owner. Others saw success as following in the footsteps of someone that they viewed as successful. But what is success?

Now, this is only from what I’ve seen and experienced, but I feel that success is something that is entirely relevant to your situation. You don’t have to be a Nobel Peace Prize winner in order to be a successful person. You don’t have to be the founder of a new technology that will revolutionize the way people live. Yea, that’s totally an awesome goal to reach for, but you can find success in everyday little things as well.

As humans, I feel that we are accustomed to having something more. We are never quite satisfied with where we are at. If we could only have that one object, or know that certain person, everything would be better. But I’ve found out that it doesn’t matter what the ‘next’ thing is, if you’re not satisfied with yourself, then you might miss all of those little things is life that can make even the smallest successes into the greatest achievements.

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In high school, I felt that the greatest success would be if I were to get into the college that I wanted to. But now that I’m in that college, it doesn’t really feel like the success that I had imagined. Now my vision of success is to graduate and get a job. But being in Air Force ROTC really is a blessing in that I don’t have to worry about that. It’s always something more, what can I do more to be more successful. It is a consuming dilemma.

But I realize that success is what you make it. I realize that if I look back one year from today and see the type of person that I was then, if my past self would be proud of the person I am now, that is success for me. If I am a better person now, than I was one year ago, that is something that I am proud of. And what does ‘better’ necessarily mean?

We live in a world with over 7 billion people now. It is very easy to look down on others or be selfish and look out for #1. Very easy. But success for me is knowing that I am just another person, knowing that I can make a difference in the life of someone else. A few summers ago, I went to a camp for disabled children, a volunteer opportunity to serve those that were diagnosed with various debilitating illnesses. It was one of the most eye-opening experiences I’ve had the opportunity to have. At the end, the camper I took care of was in tears, because he told me that out in the ‘real’ world no one has treated him with the love and care that we were able to provide. And it was definitely a stinger to the heart, because knowing that when he went back to his school others would pick on him (some of his stories were heartbreaking). For these kids, this camp is heaven and knowing that I made a difference in one other person, I saw that as a major success in my life. Knowing that I can be like a large majority of people, looking out for only myself, but I choose not to be. I have the means and the resources to help others, so why keep it all to myself?

Because of that one experience, along with a countless others, I am on my current path now of being that officer in the Air Force. Why, the Air Force? Serving in the military that protects the rights of people like you and me seemed to be the best way I felt that I could give back. Not only that but following the example that my dad put forth, being in the Army was a major contributor to my decision. I don’t know what it was, but there’s just something so gratifying in helping others and putting yourself 2nd to put the needs of those around you.

And that is what success is to me. Knowing that if I’m able to make someone’s life even just a bit more easy at my expense, it was all worth it in the end. It’s not what I can do for myself, or about the amount of money, or the number of people that you know. It’s about knowing that someone did that for me, who didn’t even know me, before I was even born. This one’s to the one that saw the value in my life even before I was born. This one’s to you, Jesus.

From 2009

From 2009

October 28, 2012

One Year

Wow, it’s been a little over one year now since I started this blog. I have learned absolutely a lot, just from writing about things that have been on my mind at one point or another. I’ve probably learned a lot more just about the world around me than any school can possibly teach. I know it probably sounds like a stretch, but that’s what I got out of it.

One year ago, I was in a totally different place with other things that were plaguing me. I was in a house, living in a little closet of a room, living day to day. Always worried about the possibility that in that next semester I might have to go home if I didn’t get an EA slot that would have allowed me to continue on that path of becoming an officer in the Air Force. Living in a house of people that didn’t really know what it meant to be a true friend. They always preached the word, but they never practiced it. No one’s perfect, but realizing your faults is way more mature than pretending that you don’t have them.

But I realized that if I wasn’t able to somehow talk about the things that bothered me, it would destroy me from the inside. I didn’t really care that maybe no one would care to listen, it was all for myself anyway. I still sometimes go back and read the posts that meant a lot to me and it sometimes does bring me to tears (you didn’t hear that from me by the way). Not only was I able to get those things off my chest, but I also found out that I’m not the only one that has things to worry about. I met a lot of unique people, saw things through their perspective and realized that, yes, I have problems. But nothing’s going to change if you just wallow in your own self pity.

I have the opportunity to change myself as well as encourage the people around me. So why not use that gift that God has blessed me with and start making a difference? I tell myself this everyday, but even just the little things can make such a huge difference. A smile, taking those few extra seconds to hold open that door for somebody, little things like that. You can change someone’s life, you have no idea.

The news today only seems to point out tragic stories of murder, kidnappings, rape. Why is it always those things that tend to put a damper on one’s attitude towards life. There’s such a good side to life, but it can be hard to find if all we are exposed to are stories of war, death, and famine.

So if there was one thing that I learned in the past year, that has affected how I view life as well as carry it out is that no matter who you are, you absolutely can make a difference. It might not be world changing or nobel prize worthy, but being able to save someone in some way you could never have expected, is worth more than anything. So just know that you are more than one person in a world of 7 billion. It just depends on how you want to make your impression on those around you.

Don’t let those smiles fool you. I’ve found out that more often than not, the happiest people are the one’s that truly need someone to talk to. They always go out of their way to make others around them feel better, but no one ever aks them if they are ok. No one would ever guess. Be yourself, observe those around you. If someone needs help, never turn a cold shoulder towards them. These are all things that I’ve learned. And all with the help of one art teacher that I had back as a kid. I found this in my planner from middle school over the summer:

Today, one of the most beloved teachers at our school passed away. He was the only teacher that ever tried to talk to me about my problems and aspirations; and he inspired me even when I felt hopeless. He constantly struggled with severe health problems, but he was still one of the happiest/funniest people I knew. But he didn’t die from health complications; he committed suicide this morning. Why?”

One of the many people that helped me as I was going through struggles as a kid growing up. It’s really burned into my heart knowing that he went out of my way to set me straight. And to carry out his kindness, it’s been a personal goal of myself to carry on that legacy that he contributed to my life with. His encouragement really helped me to become the person that I am today, and his passing will not be in vain.

So I just want to thank you all for being with me for this long. I just hope that I was able to make some sort of impact on you as you all have had on me.

April 28, 2012

A little about me.

Alright so I’ve been getting some questions here and there as to who I am and what I do. Alright, so who I am. Easy! I’m just an ordinary college kid, living life, you know doing the normal things that college kids do. Like live off of a pretty horrible diet of Ramen and Macaroni and Cheese <—haha. As well as just surviving day to day challenges that life brings. Overall, life is good! Yea there are some rough days, like I might have mentioned a bit in that last post. But you get over it. It’s not the end of the world, and I’m breathing still, so it’s all good. For sure.

Exactly how I feel today lol.

School has definitely been kicking my but lately, but oh well, you do what you can. One thing I realized lately though is that if there is one thing that you want to do in life, you should definitely have a passion for it. I couldn’t imagine doing something for 20 years, 30 years, or even a lifetime’s work of work where everyday was a total drag and I hated going to work. Definitely choose something that you have a desire to do, even on the hardest of days. Because liking what you do is half the battle, after that everything else will follow into place. But not finding that right fit will totally throw you off and there really is no going up from there. Anyways, that was just from my own personal experience (and what little of that do I have lol) and I thought it would be worthwhile to share. Anyways, I see that I’m not that great at answering questions or describing much about me either. Seems I like to go off topic a lot haha! Oh well. Hopefully it was satisfactory enough.

Just a little something extra about me! Thought I'd throw that in there as well. (That's me in the center :)

January 24, 2012

Cross-Roads

 

Every one will eventually reach a crossroad in their life. Sometimes, the decision on which path to take is clear cut, but other times it can be a life changing one. As I sit here, mid-homework, I realize that I’m about to come to one of those cross roads. But before I go further into that I just want to reflect on who I am, and how I got here.

I was always the quiet kid. I was always that one kid that would rather be left alone. The one that always sat in the corner. Maybe it was just me trying to cope in a life without a father. I was only 5 or so at the time, but it was a dark time for me. Scary too, since I just moved to the United States not long after. (Most people don’t know, but English is my second language.) Anyways, it was in these times that I was trying to figure out what love truly was, what friendship could bring to a person. My mother (who is the most wonderful person in the world by the way!) was the person that first taught me that friendships have no boundaries. Being young at the time, and going through a stage of life where kids are first to judge on appearance rather than substance of personality, most kids didn’t really want to have anything to do with me. All because I didn’t have the same hue of skin color and ultimately didn’t look like them. I didn’t mind, but on the inside I did. All I wanted was to have a normal life and for people to accept me.

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As I grew and finished elementary school and started to progress through middle school I made some friends here and there. I was lucky because these were the friends that were always by my side, no matter what. I still hang out with them even today from time to time. It was a little surprising because being thrown in a new country and what-not I had no idea what to expect or even what a normal life would consist of. I mean there was nothing wrong with me, except the fact that I had no family. Except for my mom. Bless her soul. She was the one that helped me become the person that I am today. She taught me that true friendships have no boundaries, and that happiness is a mode of transportation. Not the destination. Because of these two little pieces of invaluable advice, as well as a whole lifetime of others, I was able to break myself out of that self-doubt and truly live the life that was meant for me.

Happiness is a key point in my life. I always wondered why I was never happy growing up. I was never happy as a kid. Maybe because I was missing half of my parenthood. But that person is out of my life now, he never had anything to do with me and that’s fine. We move on. That’s just how it goes. Happiness is just a matter of how you look at things. The fact that I’m breathing right now, and that I’m relatively healthy is enough for me. One thing that I found though, in order to be happy, is that you have to accept yourself. Nobody’s perfect. I can’t stress that enough. I looked past all of my insecurities and realized that I was much stronger than I had previously thought to be. I was able to become familiar with a majority of the students in my highschool enough that I was voted Prom King senior year. I never thought in a million years that that would have happened to me. I would definitely be the last person on my mind that would’ve won something like that. It’s usually all the football players that get nominated for that stuff. But just being myself was the key. The football guys actually voted for me! Not only that, but I finished high school ranked 4 out of 289 with a cum gpa of 4.5 (Not that that kind of stuff matters in college anyways.) But I’m not trying to brag, the point I’m trying to make is that you are the captain of your own life.

It's all you.

You choose where you want to go. And attitude really goes a long way. Knowing that you will be happy will be significantly more successful than hoping you will be happy. It’s all up to you.

Considering that, I’ve also learned that we are all human. It doesn’t matter our skin color or ethnicity or religion. We are all of the same flesh and blood. Why we go/have gone to war over trivial details as those is beyond me. We’re all living this life together. And there is no reason to make it harder for each other. It truly saddens me to know that there are still racial issues around the world, and although I may have not have been victim to a stoning or lynching or any other thing as horrible as that, I still know the pain of being alienated. It’s truly a sad thing.

On another note, I’ve also seen the good that humanity has to offer. There are still good people out there. Definitely harder to find nowadays, but still there nonetheless. I’ve had the good fortune to be raised by a strong woman and to have continuously met others as I have gone through my own trials and tribulations. And I just want to give thanks to those people, even though they’ve moved on with their own lives and may never read this. Not only that but, I also wanted to thank all of the people that I’ve met here too. If you’ve made it down this far, you guys are definitely keepers :P But really, I created this blog with the expectations of me being the only reader and that this would be a place where I would just keep my own memories for memories’ sake. So thank you for your unbridled support.

Anyways, so back to where I am now. I’ve reached that crossroad, and I’ve made a decision. I will become an officer in the Air Force as soon as I graduate. The training for it has already started for this semester (AFROTC) and it’s going to be tough. The road seems uncertain because there are so many others that have chosen to walk this path that I have chosen. This is the semester that will make or break me. Looking back, it was the kindness of other people that has gotten me this far and through this kindness I’d like to give something back. So wish me luck! I’ve already had a few honors being in the program but it’s all about the grades now. So here’s to a productive semester, which means that I may have to give up this blog for awhile…at least until I know for sure. So once again, I thank you for making it with me this far and inspiring me with all of your posts! You guys have had a real impact on how I view things, and that is a gift far greater than any tangible object. And don’t forget, it’s because of the sacrifices of people like Jim (see photo below) that we are able to say the things we do, without any fear or threat of consequence. So remember, that one day, that kid that you never knew may be the one that will give the ultimate sacrifice so that you can stay comfortable in your homes and share your thoughts with others. There’s no need for hate. Especially when we’re all in this together.

January 11, 2012

No words necessary.

December 31, 2011

The Simple Days

Every once in a while, I’ll have a dream. A really peaceful dream actually. I’m in a field, some sort of pasture and I’m free to run. Run forever and ever without a care in the world because there are no worries. The sun is bright, the clouds are high, the field is green. I could feel the cool air brush on my face as I’m running. Flowing through my hair and my clothes. Very surreal. I almost feel like I’ve been in a place like this before. But I never have.

Then I wake up and in an instant…everything is gone. I find myself facing another day, mostly of the same routines. I sometimes wish that I could fall back asleep and go back to that haven. That safe place where the monotony of this world is broken. But I can’t and I have to bring myself to wake up. I have to realize that maybe there isn’t a place like that. No where close to me anyways…

Hard to believe that another year is coming to a close. The Christmas tree in our living room is dim. The presents there no more. To be honest, I didn’t really feel a Christmas cheer this year. I feel like it’s just used as more of a marketing tool for many corporations to sell their products. It just feels like it lost that magic that made it such a special day. I remember when I was a few years younger the weeks leading up to Christmas would feel like I was in limbo. Christmas couldn’t just get here any faster! But this year, it just felt like another ordinary day…is this how adults feel about the holidays?

I was able to see War Horse today. And it was actually a touching story. Really enjoyed it. And I’m not really a fan of a boy-that-falls-in-love-with-an-animal type of story either. Looking a little past the story, I realized that before all of this technology that things used to be good and innocent. Everything was so much more pure. People were more open, more friendly. You could look into someone’s eyes and they would look back at you and smile.

Another show/movie that I watched recently was 5 Centimeters Per Second. I wanted to mention this one because reminiscing about life before computers and cell phones made me remember this gem of a story. The movie, in brief, is about this boy and a girl that are unable to share their feelings for each other. They eventually grow up and follow their own paths, but this movie was freaking heartbreaking. I was basically shouting at my computer the whole time for them just to admit their feelings for each other. And you know, I actually might have shed a few tears at the end. Or it could’ve been my contact solution. Yea, it was definitely the solution.

But absolutely stunning plot and visuals for both movies. But the point is that life before seemed to be more carefree. I don’t yet know if it’s just me growing up and moving away from the comforts of being just a kid or if it might be just the times. The internet may connect the globe, but does it connect hearts? I feel as if genuine kindness of the heart is harder to come by these days…but I’m not saying that it’s gone. You just have to search deeper, I guess.

Anyways, its officially New Years Eve now and I just wanted to get that off my mind. I don’t really mind if no one reads what I write. I just feel that it is soothing maybe even stress relieving to lay down what’s really on my mind every once in a while. So if you’ve happened to make it down this far, I thank you and I want to wish you a Happy New Year! New year, new beginnings right?

December 19, 2011

Lame Alert

So recently I saw this commercial on tv. I was just watching some ridiculous late night shows and nearing the point of dozing off into a pleasantly peaceful sleep when, all of a sudden like a mailman in the sights of a doberman, my eyes and ears were assaulted by this sad as hell excuse for a commercial. For some reason, I couldn’t find this particular version on YT…but then again I didn’t look too hard.

http://www.lifealertnewyork.com/TVCommercial1.html

Now I know this sort of situation is a really scary thing for the elderly out there, but they really could’ve tried a bit harder to sell the point. I mean the lady near the beginning that had the heart attack couldn’t have been more bitter than my milk after finding it in the back of my refrigerator after a couple months. Past the expiration date. “When you had a heart attack like I did, and there was no one there. Life Alert was there for me.” And for the home protection part…I don’t even know where a good place to start would be. For instance, the guy watching over the house…what was he doing before the call, just sitting there? Chillin’ maybe…possibly eating some cheetos by his looks… I mean if you watch that part, the screen turns on as if it was off the whole time. But whatever, maybe I’m just reading too much into something that only took 20 minutes and the creative ideas of a couple of second graders deprived of their nap-time. Actually, never mind because that would have been a hell of a lot more creative than this commercial haha. But in all, I’m only poking fun at the commercial not at the actual situations.

Here’s a YT video with the heart attack/bitter lady…

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